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Working here has become a slow yet steady decline. Do you ever feel like you�re going to crack? But you don�t�because the constraints of society are too burdensome. I can�t crack, because I�ll get fired. I can�t get fired because I have to pay my bills. Oh how I long to do something I love. Something I care about. With people I care about. Working here only produces dissent within me. Do we force purpose? Oh, I suppose I�m building character. I feel alone. Bored. Tired. Hostile. Lord, rescue me. Get me out of this place. Set me free. Let me run in open fields. I think of my Psalm: In my distress I cried out to the Lord. �I am cut off from your sight!� Yet You heard my cry for mercy. Set me free from this prison, that I may praise your name. Answering phones is my prison. So then, am I like Paul�stuck, desiring to be free. I want the church to pray for my freedom. Set me free. I want them to pray, and as they are praying, I want to walk to their door. Open it��Look, here I am. No longer in prison! Rejoice with me, for my King has heard my prayer.� Yet I do not doubt He hears me now. You see, He has this strange way about Him. I believe He knows me. I believe He knows my heart. Oh, I am so anxious. I feel as if I am awaiting a hearing. And the verdict is� I really have no idea. You give and take away. There are so many variables in life. Honestly, Trace P.S. I have always had a flair for the dramatic.
p.p.s. I need to make the addendum, that though I am ready to leave now, and am praying for a new job--there are some things here I have learned, and am deeply grateful for. Now that I think about it, I think I will take more than that with me from this place...but right now, it's 5, and I'm going home
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